Gamble

Dear Wink

I am sorry, for using your body like a garbage bin. I took you for granted totally.

It is an immensely lonely place to go.. to discover you.. knowing nobody else is as invested in knowing Wink as you thought you deserve to.

I could call you out for dinner today.. but why would that contribute to my already overflowing disappointment…?

Therefore, you bullied Wink.

You made her into this hollow vessel.., swallowing whatever possible. You were not properly attentive to what she wants and needs. You did feed her plenty, of junk food. They are calorie dense, but far from nourishing.

Why.. why do you do all these to her.., to gamble her like currency.. to play her like a chess piece.

What did she do to deserve all these mistreatments.., from you?

There is no point in mentioning you are evil , but you are. I still want to learn to love you though. My feelings are at present, faint, and weakening day by day.., and has been unrequited for a long long time.

Will you.., hold my hand.., just once.. genuinely?

Love